Now does it scare you that I'm able to discern...

I can't feel.

So I hate myself. Not gonna lie. Can't sugar coat it. What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm so angry. I'm so stupid. I feel fucking terrible.
SO. STUPID.

I don't know why, but remembering the dream brought tears to my eyes again. When they ran down my face it hurt. I'm not sure why, but it did. It feels like someone burned me where the tears ran down. I don't like this feeling. I just want you here.
For now,
This time, this time, I'm gonna try anything to just feel better.

Hey uhm...what are you doing? Could you like...stop acting like you think I'm nice?
This shit happens at the worst times.
Hatred.
lol

I'm being lazy. I need to not do that.
So sfsdfsf flirted with me. For the umpteenth time. I love how I added "umpteenth" to my dictionary on here. Lmao. I also think it's funny how I never added Lmao. Wow. Anyway,
He asked if I wanted to cuddle.
No, I do not want to cuddle with you. I'm good. Excuse me.
Haha.
Why does that have to happen? He knows I don't like him. I've never liked him. I WILL NEVER. Like him.
Seriously. lol.
But I'm not dumb I realize he just got out of his relationship.
Again.
Ew. God.
lol.

I don't think I'll ever understand what they'll feel. Never.